I know its been a while since I posted.. but quite frankly there hasnt been anything worth-while. I guess there have been a few calls that I might touch on, but for the most part life has been busy with web design, moving, and heart-ache. Yeah, yeah, yeah... everyone has troubles... but dammit this is my page so I get to be an emotional wreck if I want to. I am laughing to myself at the irony of being 2 hours shy of exactly 5 months that "the one" and I started our thing. While the past 5 months have flown by and save for the last few weeks have been simply put, wonderful. He is my best friend and has been for years, which makes the pain that much more. I would give back this time just to know I have my friend. We both leaned on each other, knew that we were always there for each other to vent to, get advice from, and make each other laugh when the rest of the world was against us. I miss that. Heart-breaks simply suck ass. I prayed for unconsciousness... it wouldnt come.. so now I'm typing. Therapeutic maybe... but again... I pity my patients tomorrow.
As far as crazy calls lately.... we had a psych call that makes me laugh just thinking about it. Dispatched as difficulty breathing we meet the engine crew on scene with a woman who is walking, talking, .... breathing... just fine. She informs us that a "negative energy is pulling her throat out"... we hang out with her until the basic unit arrives. We're getting some history on her and she continues with, "my heart has been ripped out too... I dont have a heart" (she was meaning literally)... and that the last time she saw her doctor they advised her that, "her vagina didnt have any cells in it"... hhhhmmmmmm... the follow up with that she gets monthly haldol shots makes sense.
Had some other calls for the standard chest pain, a kid with seizures at a chinese temple whose parents were nowhere around and NO ONE spoke english, a double GSW to the chest (my partner and I had a fabulous on scene time of 1 min 15 seconds), and a host of others I cant recall.
For those that dont know from other means, I now live in Alabama. Yep, Alabama. Roll, Tide, Roll. Never saw that coming, but.... BUT.. it is so beautiful over here. I guess I never thought about it, but I am amazed when I am driving around at all the mountains. Its like being in north GA. And I have some great friends over here, so since I was spending all my off time over here, figure why not just move over here. There is a car pool with a bunch of us on "A" shift, so the drive isnt that bad. Am getting all settled into the new place and while I love it, at the same time am adjusting my mind-set to being on my own again and not having him and the boys on their way down here. While I understand his basis for letting me go and focusing on the kids, doesnt make the wound any less hurtful. While true.. I havent had children of my own to have to care for, to taxi to and from events, and work my arse off to provide for them... but I was trying to be understanding. So many things I dont understand.. which just makes me frustrated and angry... which makes me emotional and probably irrational.
I cant think of anything else to write that makes sense or is not to personal.. so I'm gonna lay here, hope for sleep... and get highly inebriated this weekend after work. Thank God for awesome friends who will make sure I make it to a bed safely Saturday night.
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